are you to turn the color of my insides
and let me back into the regiment
permit me to accommodate myself with correlating plans
synchronizations, meeting points and times
so i know like i used to
that the other side will receive me
with my seven snake eyes, paid malevolence and fangs

give me you are a fiend in my gut
and what i would like to rely on
where do you go
will it stop your deafness
onset by too many
who may have meant well

if i needed you here i would have willed it by now
the ache is an impasse, closer is terminal
but i unjustly reminisce the way the wrong key opens an ancient door
there, there nowhere
that does not recede, wading through reason on a starvation diet
with one broken oar, two black eyes, and a scalpel
to draw you out

i have had but could not keep

it's an electrical storm, that is what happened

not for you, for me
swimming in my own blood less bravely than my custom
i became a drain, then a messenger
now objects adopt your character
and i am in love with an appliance
as if you made it work